Often we hear it said that ‘what we think’ defines who we are. But we have to ask the question; who is doing the thinking?
If I don’t know who I am I will tend to be filled with fear, doubt and confusion don’t you think?
Who I am is so very important. I am meant to have a sense of ‘who’ I am.
I know, that growing up, I asked that question a lot. I tended to feel isolated, alone and lonely. I don’t know exactly what caused that, but that is how I felt a lot of the time.
In fact that sense of being alone grew so strong that it caused me to really ask; who am I? and What is this life all about?
I dropped into a pit of despair as a result.
Then one day it grew so dark that I would have taken my life were it not that I was so despairing that I was totally lethargic.
I would rather have rotted than make the effort it took to take my own life.
Any way, in that pit it came to me to take a chance and call upon God, if there was such a thing.
I cried in all sincerity to this unknown supreme being in my imagination and lo and behold some message got through to me that indeed I was loved and all is well.
I heard in the depth of my soul that God is and that everything, somehow is under control.
If you had asked me, before that experience, what I thought. You would have gotten very random and crazy unconnected thoughts.
I had no BASIS for my thought except my very limited sense of my self and what I could figure out on my own.
God was out there and I was separated from any experiential sense of that God. I was on my own and afraid and confused and so my thinking was all over the place.
I assumed I was alone and had only limited resources to help me.
All of a sudden, with the new found certainty that God is, that came to me I had a new basis for thinking.
I gradually changed my assumption. Instead of seeing myself alone I began to be aware that I am always living, moving and having my being in this reality called God.
So my thinking changed dramatically more and more over the years as I reflected on my new assumption of being One with God instead of being alone and separated from God and people.
Assuming oneness with God has become a greater and greater assumption. So, starting from that belief, my thinking is continually changing to reflect my assumption that I am One with God.
It was Neville who said that “what we assume will harden into fact.”
In my early days my aching heart lead to a confused mind and my thinking was crazy.
As I grow deeper into my assumption of Unity with God I find my thinking becoming more and more expansive, systematic and orderly because I have a basis for thinking.
As I assume God qualities instead of fear filled victim qualities my thinking is getting more and more focused and defined by who I believe myself to be.
So my assumption is leading me to ideas of Truth, Goodness and Beauty and hence to a greater and greater sense of Harmony. This, all because my sense of who I am is defining my thinking.
And of course, my thinking is defining with ever more depth and clarity my sense of who I am.
So I conclude that the first and most important thing for me and my starting point is not my ‘thinking’ as such.
It is my sense of who I Am.
There you go. I share with you my thinking for today.
Peace and joy